Sometimes I write. Sometimes I make photographs and music. Creativity is strange and evasive. It’s easily confounded by personal demons and self-sabotage. Grasping it, even for a moment, is challenging.

So much of our online interaction is based on some degree of self marketing, and I really struggle talking about myself. When I do, I often find the systems of categorisation used to define people very limiting. I can easily maintain a list of my most common dabblings, and I have done so below, but I cultivate a wide range of interests, including but not limited to: boardgames, pen and paper role playing games, ancient history, philosophy and philosophy of mind, astronomy, technology, futurism, sociology, politics…and on and on…

I’m an introspective person, but not always quiet. I favour genuine people and few friends. I enjoy open spaces and suffer crowds and cities grimly. There are times when I’d be happy to live on a secluded hill with my family, and other times when I’m inspired to use a camera in crowded concrete jungles.

On Writing

I wrote a poem about colours and daydreams when I was little. A kindly old teacher read it later that term, and I was chosen as one of only a few dozen children from the school to be part of what they called a Writing Camp. I felt very special.

A local poet, Rory Harris, was there and tutored us in writing and poetry. I even had one of my poems published ! At the time, I wanted to become a writer. My family told me I was good at it and, since I was so terrible at mathematicss, I grew up thinking that it was the only thing I could do.

I enjoy writing short stories with a twist. Anything in the spec-fic area is of great interest, but a good story in any genre is just a good story ! All the better if I’ve written it myself, which I really need to do more of…

Some influential books and people: The Magician by CS Lewis, Borderlands (twisted short stories), Hyperion by Dan Simmons, Romantic English poetry (specifically William Blake), Gary Gygax of D&D fame, Michael Moorcock and his visions of multiversal Law and Chaos.

On Photography

I used to fear learning about photography. I was afraid that I wouldn’t understand it, and it would be yet another technically minded pursuit that I’d have to relegate to the ‘interested, but unable to comprehend’ bin. That all changed when my brother and his family visited for Christmas 2012.

iPhone 4S 1/240--f/2.4 4.28mm
iPhone 4S 1/240–f/2.4 4.28mm

On Christmas afternoon, he handed me his Canon EOS camera to look at. I turned it over carefully and inspected the body and the lens. It all seemed a mystery to me at the time, but it also sparked several thoughts: what was I scared of? Why couldn’t I learn something about photography? Why should I limit myself?

And so, I watched a bunch of videos online, read books and websites, browsed forums, and just kept on thinking about the technical aspects of photography: ISO, exposure, shutter speed, and so on. Most important of all, I practiced. I picked up my newly acquired camera whenever I had time and went out walking. I tried different modes, thought about settings, tried some night photography, and adjusted my thinking and my eyes.

One has to be comfortable making mistakes in order to learn. One has to be open to the idea that a fantastic photo opportunity might be missed due to human error, and it’s just not worth dwelling on a lost moment. Making mistakes provides me with the opportunity to analyse where I go wrong. I’m always learning. Every photo is a lesson.

On Making Music

I’ve been dabbling in music composition since 1998. At that time, I became interested in the burgeoning world of software based noise makers and sequencing. Since I’d been interested in electronic music for so many years, it seemed a good way to further enjoy music.

When I have time, I like to record sounds with my field recorder and mangle them. I really enjoy the timeless nature of some ambient music and strive for the same sense of mind expanding space in my own music.

Some favourite artists: Jarre, Vangelis, 808 State, LFO, The Orb, Orbital, Brian Eno, Harold Budd, Art of Noise, Steve Roach, bvdub, Celer.

Here are some tracks I made between 1998 and 2014:

On Painting

This, I have only just started. Abstract acrylic painting I enjoy most, but I am truly a beginner. I posted about my first completed canvas here.

Me (iPhone 4S 1/20--f/2.4 4.28mm)
Me (iPhone 4S 1/20–f/2.4 4.28mm)

74 thoughts on “About Me

    • October 19, 2015 at 5:03 am
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      Oh, thank you Kim 🙂 I’d love to accept it of course. What do I need to do?

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    • September 10, 2015 at 9:10 am
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      Thank you for visiting and taking the time to write 🙂

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  • July 21, 2015 at 2:57 pm
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    our interests are quite aligned! I’ve just started officially blogging. Poems and Photography are my ways of expressing. Hope to learn a lot by following your blog. Happy Writing !

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  • April 30, 2015 at 12:02 pm
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    “Creativity is strange and evasive. It’s easily confounded by personal demons and self-sabotage. Grasping it, even for a moment, is challenging.” This is just one of the things on this page that sound very familiar. I love the speed of protogasm! 😉

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    • April 30, 2015 at 12:26 pm
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      Thanks @david 🙂 Sounds like we might have a few things in common ! I’ve actually taken a hiatus from music, but do aim to return at some point soon.

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  • April 30, 2015 at 10:00 am
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    Thanks so much for visiting me at Beyond the Flow and the follow. I am also looking forward to reading more your posts and share many interests. My brother is into electronic music…we think. Not quite sure what he’s doing in his room but he certainly makes his own sounds. Take care xx Rowena

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  • April 7, 2015 at 3:26 pm
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    Interesting about page. You seem to have a few interests that I have, but unlike you I did add them to the ‘interested, but unable to comprehend’ bin.

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    • April 9, 2015 at 4:55 am
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      Thanks for stopping by @steve 🙂 Oh, if I listed the things i was interested in but cannot do, it would easily fill a page !

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  • April 7, 2015 at 5:47 am
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    Thanks so much for stopping by to visit my blog! You have some really neat stuff over here. :yes: I was actually reading (well, listening to) C.S. Lewis today! What an imagination. Have a lovely day!

    Had to fix a typo. Sorry for the duplicate. Otherwise, it said I was reading “to” C.S., which, although kind of me, would be an incredible feat…ha!

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    • April 9, 2015 at 4:56 am
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      Hi @caseyalexanderblog 🙂 Y’know, that would be a feat ! I’d add ‘The Magician’s Nephew’ as having a significant impact on my child’s mind.

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  • March 22, 2015 at 9:54 pm
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    Hi Steve. Thanks for stopping by at Ruby Slippers some time ago. Your site looks interesting and inviting in many ways. Writing, music and totally got yah on photography and math. Nice meeting you fellow soul mate 🙂
    I’ll take some time to explore your blog.

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    • March 23, 2015 at 1:52 pm
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      Thank you @karin 🙂 I really appreciate it.

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  • March 21, 2015 at 9:13 am
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    Thank you for visiting my blog and commenting, I look forward to looking through your blog when I get home (looking on my phone at the moment). I love your old camera collection, I have a couple of working ones which I love.

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    • March 23, 2015 at 1:34 am
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      Hi @karen 😉 Cool, what old cameras do you have?

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  • March 16, 2015 at 2:34 pm
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    Thanks connecting up on Jason’s thread. I like your site and viewpoint. I’ll come back another day and look around more. We have a lot in common.

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    • March 16, 2015 at 2:52 pm
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      Hi @richard-rensberry ! Thank you. I appreciate it. I shall be checking out your blog also and look forward to connecting 🙂

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  • February 24, 2015 at 3:19 pm
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    Hi! This is different format then I’m used to. I can’t find the follow button. I like the Protogasm. It sounds like productivity!
    Xo

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    • February 25, 2015 at 4:00 am
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      Hi @margaret . Thanks for visiting. You can just enter your email in the opt-in form to the right 🙂

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  • February 13, 2015 at 7:56 pm
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    Steve, thanks for finding and following back. Your story here has some resemblance to my own, so I will be very interested to see what else you are willing to share about your world. Self-promotion is SO hard when you are a genuine person – and not just egotistically blind to your own faults. A big part of the reason it has taken me so long to finally begin a blog myself is the idea of baring my soul to perfect strangers (moderation discretion helps 😉 ) but I’m not so worried about acceptance as I am understanding. That has always been a hard thing for me – to be understood. Lots of people don’t like me, that’s fine, I tend to be blunt and forthright so that puts people off. I am more disgusted when people won’t try to understand or even consider another point of view, mine or someone else’s. So my hope is to find others, like you, who are willing to share the deeply personal in an effort to better learn from and hopefully understand each other.
    Blessings to you and yours.

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    • February 15, 2015 at 1:56 am
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      Well, thank you kindly for visiting @joslin-knightwitch ! I really appreciate the connection. It’s true. When you don’t seek the limelight, self promo is difficult. It goes against one’s nature entirely. Thouygh, it could be argued that even running a blog is some desire to seek the attention of others. Admittedly, there is a personal therapy in it, and I think many many people use it as such. There are indeed so many in the world with narrow viewpoints; those unwilling to entertain differeny ideas. In some sense, I don’t blamr them fo rit because for many people being part of a crowd or sticking strongly to one set of ideas helps them to feel accepted, strong, and part of something. In essence, I think it’s a mechanism for self defence or feeling better about oneself. This doesn’t mean that those strong views aren’t destructive to the individual and the greater community though! Thank you again for visiting, and I hope we can chat further :good:

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  • February 5, 2015 at 3:12 am
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    Yes, made it larger and clearer”… :)) I’m a curious, blurry, fishy… creature 😉
    So nice of you keeping us ‘up to date’… (pic, tracks…) !

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  • January 24, 2015 at 12:40 am
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    Steve, it’s nice to meet you, too. Thank you for strolling by my blog today. I hope you found something that made your smile. Well, I’m off to visit some more of your blog…I think poetry will be my first stop. By the way, I’m not very good in math, either. 😉

    Blessings for a wonderful weekend,
    Marianne

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    • February 11, 2015 at 6:03 am
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      Thank you @marianne ! I do wish I was better at math. I feel like there’s a whole world shut off to me because of it :scratch:

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    • January 24, 2015 at 2:54 am
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      You’re very kind. I pursue these avenues in hopes that I will learn and develop my vision of the world. Some days it all feels a bit too much! What do you think?

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      • January 24, 2015 at 10:32 am
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        The way I look at it.. It could be much but you have talents and interests and you follow them 🙂

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  • January 23, 2015 at 3:00 am
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    Great that you have so many creative interests…. that’s what life is all about!

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    • January 23, 2015 at 3:04 am
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      Exactly!! Now to find the time for them 🙂 Thank you.

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  • January 21, 2015 at 10:01 pm
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    Gday Steve, interesting space you have here. Very cool. Thanks for the comments and follow on my blog. I will be sure to keep up with this place too. You sound like someone i’d enjoy having a beer with.

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    • January 22, 2015 at 4:56 am
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      Thanks mate 🙂 Will keep up with your own blog and thoughts too. I do have a couple of Heinekens on the shelf here!

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  • January 21, 2015 at 9:55 pm
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    Hi Steve! Thank you for stopping by my blog. You have a fantastic site. 🙂

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    • January 22, 2015 at 4:57 am
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      Thanks for visiting Sam 🙂 And thank you for your kind comments. Please stay in touch.

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  • January 21, 2015 at 12:46 am
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    Thank you so much for the visit and follow. I will heartily subscribe and look forward to your adventures. I’ll start reading now. What a beautifully constructed site!

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    • January 21, 2015 at 3:31 am
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      Thank you kindly 🙂 I look forward to connecting and reading through your own site !

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  • January 20, 2015 at 2:55 pm
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    Thank you for the follow, Steve. I wish I could follow you on WP (too much email) but I’ll check back. Your photos are very well done. I work for National Geographic as an editor (have no power with photos/photographers) and have seen a lot. Try entering the MyShot. http://yourshot.nationalgeographic.com/

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    • January 20, 2015 at 3:22 pm
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      Thank you for your kind words! I know what you mean about WP. I think it’s possible to change it to weekly or digest emails to make it more manageable. That’s quite ok. I do this as a hobby, so my primary audience is me, and if others like it then all the better. I will check it out though. Thanks for visiting, and I hope you visit again 🙂

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  • January 20, 2015 at 1:40 pm
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    Hi Steve, thanks for following me over at thewaxingpoeticproject. I’m so glad you did, because it enabled me to discover your blog! It has everything I like, so I will be following you as well. I think you might be a fellow sunset lover. Your post about the bush fires gave great insight into how something so destructive can leave a beautiful effect in nature. It reminded me of the first time I saw a burned-out forest coming into the Grand Canyon and feeling the stark devastation, yet beautiful in some way. Have you ever listened to the music of Zero 7? You may enjoy the ambient sound of that group. I was going to say happy new year and stay warm, but you are in the heat of summer there, even though we are bundled up in fleeces and wooly socks over here. I love that through this technology people from around the globe can connect. Looking forward to seeing your future posts.

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    • January 20, 2015 at 3:32 pm
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      Thank you very much 🙂 I really appreciate you taking the time to visit. Yes, I love a fine sunset! Now how did you guess ? 🙂 hehe. I visitted the Grand Canyon quite a few years ago, and I am trying to imagine the devastation of what you describe. Beauty and destruction often go hand in hand I guess.
      Yes, I know Zero 7 🙂 I remember their first album actually. Definitely enjoyable. What else do you like?
      And a Happy NY to you also. It’s summer here, but a little milder than they had predicted, which is good. We never have a white Xmas here, but I do remember walking through the snow each morning in New Haven, CT. Thanks again. I’ll visit soon.

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  • January 18, 2015 at 3:02 pm
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    hi steve, i don’t actually know where to search for the posting you wrote about (“I posted some advice about photographing your artwork …”)
    if you don’t mind, please send me the link.

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  • January 15, 2015 at 9:12 pm
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    Thanks for popping by my blog and ‘liking’ one of my poems. I don’t think of myself of a poet, so it is always a lovely feeling when someone likes what I wrote. Thank you.

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    • February 11, 2015 at 6:05 am
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      You’re welcome @cicampbell2013 !

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  • January 15, 2015 at 3:01 pm
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    Thanks for visiting me at roughwighting. I feel the same as you – a bit intimidated about my creativity – in writing and photography – and especially in self-promotion. But loving the challenge. Keep it going!

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    • February 11, 2015 at 6:07 am
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      @roughwighting You’re welcome ! Self promotion is not easy is it?

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  • January 14, 2015 at 9:00 pm
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    Thanks for the follow Steve and if you’re into ‘mind-expanding’ music have you tried NEU! or la Dusseldorf? Way before their time…

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    • January 15, 2015 at 4:19 am
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      You’re welcome 🙂 Thank you also. Ahhh the old Krautrock. I like NEU! Yes, quite ahead of their time. I like a lot of the older German sounds, like Cluster, Moebius, Schulze, Tangerine Dream. It was Kraftwerk in the mid 80s that first drew me into such music. Can’t forget Roedelius, Budd and Eno either.

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  • January 9, 2015 at 10:43 am
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    I think it is great that you are pursuing a number of creative activities at the same time like writing, photography, and painting. You are obviously a very talented man!

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    • January 10, 2015 at 9:39 am
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      You’re too kind. I simply see it as not placing a full stop on the learning story 🙂

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  • January 5, 2015 at 8:50 pm
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    Your blog is interesting, entertaining and informative. It’s also laid out well and is easy to look at, navigate and read … it’s surprising how many blogs aren’t. Your images are compelling. Nice work all around.

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    • January 7, 2015 at 3:33 am
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      Thank you very much. I appreciate you taking the time to visit. Despite the issues with a self hosted WP install, it does provide additional options for customisation; and I always err toward easy to read and navigate above overstyling.

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  • January 4, 2015 at 7:48 am
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    Very interesting blog you have, and you are very creative too with your hobbies. Big thanks for your wonderful visit and clicking on my blog, I’m honored and very appreciate it. Thank you. Regards @Della

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    • December 17, 2014 at 2:15 am
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      Thank you Gavin. I appreciate that.

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  • December 12, 2014 at 1:57 pm
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    Wow! You know what I think you did a wonderful job talking about yourself. I think that this is your space so you can say whatever you want to. That is what I do although it’s hard to tell I struggle with sharing. I think the anonymity of WP lends itself for me to be myself. I love that you are into so many things. I am too. I have been an artist all my life and professionally I’m a senior editor/art director and graphic designer and illustrator but here on WP I don’t really share that but since your are in this business so to speak I feel comfortable doing so. I’m glad you happened upon my blog! Have a super day! You’ll be seeing me a lot. I’m adding your blog to my reading list! 😀

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    • December 12, 2014 at 2:20 pm
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      It took me quite a long time and a few drafts to put this page together actually, as I feel similarly about sharing and self promotion. Social media tends to go against the grain a bit for me, only because I can find it overwhelming in terms of numbers. It’s part of the reason I just decided to blog and just try to be happy writing stuff down and stop worrying about all the stats and numbers. If someone connects with it, then that’s great.
      I’d be happy to hear your artistic thoughts, so please share away if you wish to ! I’m always curious about creativity! Thank you.

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  • December 11, 2014 at 12:59 am
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    thanks so much for your visit and follow!! I love your journey of discovery!! I have rather eclectic interests as well including astronomy and story telling!! 🙂

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    • December 11, 2014 at 1:15 am
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      No worries 🙂 Eclectic is good !

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  • December 10, 2014 at 3:22 am
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    Lots f interest… That’s great… Thanks for following and stopping by my blog…

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    • February 11, 2015 at 6:08 am
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      You’re welcome @lumar1298 ! B-)

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  • December 4, 2014 at 3:19 pm
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    Good morning, Steve. Thanks for visiting and following my blog. I particularly appreciate your encouraging words. I feel much better now 😉 Helen

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    • December 4, 2014 at 9:31 pm
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      No problem Helen 🙂 Please post more photos.

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    • February 11, 2015 at 6:09 am
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      Thank you @lensandpensbysally :bye:

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